.this made me cry.

I just recently read my favorite Ate's blog (hehe)... and it made me cry. But more than that, it gave me the encouragement that I really needed at this point in my life.

Ate, you definitely know the words to brighten up, not just my day, but my entire life.

I love you so much, and I miss you. A lot. More than anyone else. I wish I could show you just how much these words mean to me Ate. I may never be able to tell you in person, pero Te, ikaw ang pinakahinahanap-hanap ko palagi, at ang unang-una kong naiisip na pagkuwentuhan tuwing may nangyayari sa buhay ko. Ikaw ang naiisip ko kapag masaya ako, kapag nadidisappoint or frustrated ako, kapag naiiyak ako... tapos mari-realize ko na hindi pala kita kasama. Wala lang. Miss na miss na miss na miss na kita Te. Sana sa bakasyon mag out-of-town naman tayo. Break natin both.

Oh, and by the way Te, I just turned 22. Ano ba yan, di mo alam age ng paborito mong kapatid??? Hehe.

Anyway, here goes my sob-fest 2007.

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ellen, my favorite sister (hehe, she's my only sister!) is doing her clerkship now for medicine in pgh..and she's only turning 21! wow right?! well, im not at all surprised because ever since we were young, she is really smart. she aces her exams in school with little amount of effort, while i need to stay up late at night just to maintain my grades. i have always wondered how she was able to do that, when i didnt even see her studying at home..really!

when i learned that she got got accepted in the intarmed program in UP, i admired her the more..because then i knew that she is going to show the world more of what she can do. although she had second thoughts about her course for a very loooong time (hehe len, peace!), it never crossed my mind that she wont make it. deep in my heart, i know that she has all that it takes to be a great doctor.

we both knew that studying medicine is very tedious and i know that she will be very busy with school work, rotations and all. but i didnt realize that she going to be this busy. now that she's doing her clerkship, she rarely goes home anymore (she is staying in an apartment near UP) and we hardly talk now. although we get to text every now and then, it still isnt the same. im not complaining because i know that this is what she is called to do..but of course, i cant help but miss her, after all, she is my only sister..dont get me wrong, i am sincerely happy for her because amidst the hardships of med school, she remains to be steadfast in her calling and in her faith.. its just that, i miss how things were before - the kwentos at night before sleeping, shopping for clothes that we will both wear, tambay sa starbucks, "friends" and moulin rouge marathon, tawanan to the max, kulitan about crushes and other stuff and the vacations we spend in pagsanjan.

i look back fondly on those memories and i realized how much we've grown now..i look at my sister and i see a doctor, someone who will give comfort, show compassion and give hope to her patients..a doctor who will make her patients feel God's love for them..and although i miss how things used to be, i am more eager to see what she will become in the future. she is already victorious because she is doing everything not by her own strength, but by Jesus who lives in her..that's my sister, the doctor....and i want to let you know that i am very proud of her. =)