.ranting.

I hate being late.

As far as I can remember, I have always made it a point to come to classes on time, meet appointments right on the dot, and be at the place about 5 minutes before the agreed upon time. Whether that is just good manners or a sign of the obsessive-compulsive disorder, I cannot tell. All I know is that I get agitated when things don't happen at the time that they are supposed to.

I have practiced this all my life. Meeting deadlines for school projects, submitting requirements, arriving where I'm expected... I have grown used to being the first person to come in group meetings. I don't know. I probably learned it from my dad, who sets the all the clocks at home 30 minutes advanced to ensure that we will never be late wherever we have to go.

Maybe that's why I always make sure everything in my life happens exactly when it is supposed to happen, even if it means rushing through some things and giving up quality for the sake of meeting the deadline I have set for myself.

It is a very tiring and draining way to live.

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I admit it. I am jealous.

I am jealous of people who know what they want to do in life and then they do it.

I am jealous of people who have the courage to turn their backs on what is expected of them in order to pursue with much certainty and assurance the dreams that are fervently burning in their hearts.

I am jealous of people who thrive in their current positions because the decisions they have made have led them there.

And I am just realizing how incredibly pathetic this piece is... because I am sitting here, ranting about all these things, when I could be out there, doing something to change the way things are going.

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No matter how it looks like... I AM GETTING THERE.

And nothing can stop God's plan from coming to pass.

Though everything has changed... my God hasn't. And I am still BEAUTIFUL IN HIS SIGHT. To everything, there is a SEASON. He has made everything beautiful in His time.

I am still the RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD IN CHRIST JESUS.

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