.i am free.

It took me quite a while to get to one of my greatest life's conclusions, but I am finally here. Are you ready for this?

I am happy.

Yes, that's right, I definitely am. After long months over agonizing about not being where I really want to be, I finally realized that I can only be as happy as I choose to be. And now, I decide that I am going to choose to be at my happiest every single day.

Without realizing it, I have come to the point where dissatisfaction became my security blanket... My excuse for not doing my assignment with much joy and passion. I did everything halfheartedly, thinking that I am not where I am supposed to be anyway, and blaming everything around me but myself. I rushed through situations and experiences, wishing my days to go faster than they should just so I could already get to the end of this particular journey. Unhappiness became my friend and mediocrity my confidante. It seeped through my entire being until I grew so accustomed to it that I felt like something was missing when I didn't have something to be miserable about.

It was a tiring way to live.

I have never felt so free before in my life. Learning and understanding the grace of God, the finished work of the Lord Jesus Christ, has set me free.

I am already complete in Christ. Nothing missing, nothing broken. Whole.

I don't have to work to please other people. What they think about me does not matter. I know my God loves me and is pleased with me no matter what... That's more than enough.

I am created in the image and likeness of God. When I begin to forget who I really am, I look into the mirror of the Word of God and see myself clearly. I am who God says I am.

I can be happy and not feel guilty about it.

I will not apologize for being blessed and highly favored because that's what I am. Can I help it if my God wants me to enjoy life?

I will celebrate life the way it is supposed to be celebrated. And I welcome anyone who wants to join me in the festivities.

I love my family and friends and I will do whatever it takes to be a blessing to them... But I refuse to allow my life to be controlled by anyone else other than the God-and-me tandem.

I do what I do because it's a gift from God. And my God who loves me has not (and never will) give me an assignment that I cannot enjoy.

I have a led a great life in the past... but I look forward to so much more. Living in the NOW is the best thing I can decide to do.. for NOW.

I will remove the phrase, "I didn't have a choice" in my book. I refuse to let anything happen in my life that I did not choose to do... When something beyond my control does happen, I know I can still CHOOSE to rest and trust in God.

Jesus paid it all. Jesus loves me.

I am free. I am free. I AM FREE.

Glory to God!